So 2009 is coming to an end. I cant say that i am sorry to see it go. This year has been a growing process for me and i can say that i am happy that it is over and done. I still think i have a lot of growing up to do, but its been rough. I have realized alot and have come into my own (whatever that means. I am excited for 2010. I have made a bunch of new friends and contacts. Things are starting to look a little brighter. Deejaying is starting to take off. I have been rocking @ level up for a minute now and i feel that leading to bigger and better things. Life right now...is ruff, but better. 2010...BRING THE RAWKUS!
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SHOUT OUT TO KENNETH CARSON! Peep his blog. Remember the name. That boy will make it big!
Monday, December 28, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Another Day Another Dolla
So, needless to say, its been rough. Work is killing me. Completely unsatisified. I have to change, but i guess i should be happy just to have a job(dont get it twisted I am) and not be so down in the dumps about it. Its just so hard to get up and come her when you know that your company doesnt give a fuck about you or your situation. I commute(shout out to D.Grayson)120 miles to go to work 6 days a week, and when i ask to be put in a location closer to me, you know what they told me? Find your replacement at your current location then we can move you. FORREAL!?! I could have stayed on unemployement and made the same money with less drama. Granted I wasnt happy doing that either but FUCK! Are you forreal? UGGGGHHHH!!!!
On another note(a good one this time), @djrockbottom and I killed level up this past friday. To bad the weather killed us too. I felt happy about my set. They are getting better and better. The nerves are gone. I mean, I still get scared and nervous. It happens. I never wanna dissapoint, but its kinda hard when ppl dont always feel my music, to be honest, it sucks. I mean OPEN YOUR MIND! Lets be real, HIP HOP AINT WHAT IT USED TO BE PERIOD. Although, I still love hiphop and always will, but it aint something with substance or old school, your just wasting my time. I dont dig top 40, never really have. Except for a certain few songs, but HOUSE, more specifically DEEP AND SOULFUL HOUSE, now that...that has always been good to me and has never lost that vibe or love or that feeling. I <3 House Music. I wish more ppl would open their minds, body and soul to something different. They might just find something they would like. I mean SHIT, if you can listen to a whole album in autotune, your ass can groove to some house music.
Sorry for being a little bitchy...but i had to let it out. LOL!
On another note(a good one this time), @djrockbottom and I killed level up this past friday. To bad the weather killed us too. I felt happy about my set. They are getting better and better. The nerves are gone. I mean, I still get scared and nervous. It happens. I never wanna dissapoint, but its kinda hard when ppl dont always feel my music, to be honest, it sucks. I mean OPEN YOUR MIND! Lets be real, HIP HOP AINT WHAT IT USED TO BE PERIOD. Although, I still love hiphop and always will, but it aint something with substance or old school, your just wasting my time. I dont dig top 40, never really have. Except for a certain few songs, but HOUSE, more specifically DEEP AND SOULFUL HOUSE, now that...that has always been good to me and has never lost that vibe or love or that feeling. I <3 House Music. I wish more ppl would open their minds, body and soul to something different. They might just find something they would like. I mean SHIT, if you can listen to a whole album in autotune, your ass can groove to some house music.
Sorry for being a little bitchy...but i had to let it out. LOL!
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Where I am at...
Man so a lot has happened and changed since I last posted. I promise to blog at least 2x a week. So Cliff notes since December 1st: Fell in love, got a broken heart, got a job, started deejaying again, fell in love again(with deejaying), started growing out my hair, got heartbroken aka had my laptop and backup drive stolen, thought the parental unit had cancer and I think that brings us current.
I have vowed to start doing things for me. For the longest time, I have felt like i have always conformed for the people in my life. Be it work or personal. I always play it safe and I am over that shit. I am over letting my life pass me by. I realized I work WAY too much and i don't have as much fun as i should. Sometime i wish i could just say fuck it and not be responsible and just fuck up like other people in my life, whenever I fuck up, It turns into some huge ordeal. I basically end up worst than before i started. Shits not fair...
So today is a new beginning, I begin the dread process of my hair. A man once told me that growing my hair is a whole experience and u will feel different and see thing differently. Which is true. Ever since i started growing my hair, I have felt liberated. I don't know why but i just feel free. I don't know how that happened but it did and i feel so good about it. Life...I wonder...Will it take me under? I don't know...but i am here for the ride....LETS GO!
I have vowed to start doing things for me. For the longest time, I have felt like i have always conformed for the people in my life. Be it work or personal. I always play it safe and I am over that shit. I am over letting my life pass me by. I realized I work WAY too much and i don't have as much fun as i should. Sometime i wish i could just say fuck it and not be responsible and just fuck up like other people in my life, whenever I fuck up, It turns into some huge ordeal. I basically end up worst than before i started. Shits not fair...
So today is a new beginning, I begin the dread process of my hair. A man once told me that growing my hair is a whole experience and u will feel different and see thing differently. Which is true. Ever since i started growing my hair, I have felt liberated. I don't know why but i just feel free. I don't know how that happened but it did and i feel so good about it. Life...I wonder...Will it take me under? I don't know...but i am here for the ride....LETS GO!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
its been about 4 months since i have posted on my blog and alot has happend in my life. These past months have been the best and the worst time of my life. I have never in my life been a jealous person but it has been made apparent to me that i have been. Which is hard for me to understand. I have been trying to deal with my "jealousy" but it doesnt seem like its working. I dont want to lose this relationship that i have developed over something so stupid. I have always been the one to be secure in the relationship never vise versa. So its tough for me to understand that i am doing it.
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