its been about 4 months since i have posted on my blog and alot has happend in my life. These past months have been the best and the worst time of my life. I have never in my life been a jealous person but it has been made apparent to me that i have been. Which is hard for me to understand. I have been trying to deal with my "jealousy" but it doesnt seem like its working. I dont want to lose this relationship that i have developed over something so stupid. I have always been the one to be secure in the relationship never vise versa. So its tough for me to understand that i am doing it.