its been about 4 months since i have posted on my blog and alot has happend in my life. These past months have been the best and the worst time of my life. I have never in my life been a jealous person but it has been made apparent to me that i have been. Which is hard for me to understand. I have been trying to deal with my "jealousy" but it doesnt seem like its working. I dont want to lose this relationship that i have developed over something so stupid. I have always been the one to be secure in the relationship never vise versa. So its tough for me to understand that i am doing it.

Jahi, The new beginning (well kinda)

Alot of things have changed in my life since my last blog but so many things have stayed the same. I still have no job(WACK) but i have a new interest in my life. She makes smile. Its something so different because this was not supposed to happen. I told myself, "just have fun and dont get too deep until thing were more clear". That shit went out the window. Its been so long since i have felt like this for someone. I feel like Alice in Wonderland and I am about to see how far the rabbit hole really goes. So moving on,

As i lay...

Its funny how money changes situations. Because i don't i have it. I have now began to worry about how i am gonna get it. This whole not working thing is killing me. I don't know what i am doing wrong. I go on interview after interview and nothing. I know the economy is bad but DAMN! There are so many people out there that are trying to work...WILLING to work but cant get a shot. I just don't get it. In the mean time, I have been partying like a rock star. I mean since i am not working, I might as well enjoy myself. That has been my only real salvation. That and my friends and fam. I have awesome friends. I have realized that maybe i have been working to hard for along time and not enjoying life. I had a pretty good life. I mean all this time i have been trying to work as hard as i can and i haven't enjoyed life and people. I have met some really good people but never gave them a chance to be more than just an acquaintance. I feel like for the first time in my life...i am seeing thing more clearly. I realize that i have been fucking up. In life, in love and in general. I am going to change. I will get back on track. The first step is realizing that i have been fucking up. I see that now. Things will change...they have to and will

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